“Mmph, mph!”
Worried that his words might become reality, I frantically shook my head. Ralph grinned lewdly at my reaction.
“What? I can’t really understand what you’re saying. You need to tell me directly with your own mouth what you want.”
The pot lid-like hand covering my mouth finally came away. I debated whether to scream for help from people right now, or follow Ralph’s words.
If everyone had gone to work, no matter how much I screamed, it would be useless. And even if someone remained, it was uncertain whether that person would help me.
My deliberation didn’t last long. I decided to wait for a moment when Ralph let his guard down so I wouldn’t waste this precious opportunity.
“What do you mean… say it directly…?”
“Stupid b*tch. I just explained it to you. Tell me with your own mouth how you want to get f*cked.”
“…I want to get f*cked… gently.”
“That’s not it. I’m specially giving you choices here, so shouldn’t you speak more politely?”
I couldn’t understand how I was supposed to be more polite than this. Had I talked back to him? Had I used informal speech? When I stared at Ralph with eyes that showed I had no idea, he let out a deep sigh.
“At this rate, you’ll probably ask me to teach you how to deliciously s*ck my c*ck with your p*ssy later? Just say something like ‘Please gently f*ck your c*ck into my p*ssy, Sir Ralph.’ That’s how you should talk!”
‘Why should I have to talk like that!’
I felt angry beyond just feeling wronged. I wanted to argue about what sane human being would talk that way. But if I showed any signs of rebellion, Ralph would do whatever he wanted. I wanted to avoid that at all costs.
Even though I knew what I had to say, the words wouldn’t come out easily. After hesitating several times, I finally managed to get out the first words.
“Sir Ra-Ralph’s…”
I squeezed my eyes shut to say the next words, but Ralph couldn’t stand the pause and spoke irritably.
“Sir Ralph’s what? Ah, you want to get pounded to pieces while tied up?”
“That’s not it…!”
“Eliat, you know I’m not a very patient person. I’ll only count to three. One, two…!”
I felt rushed by the decreasing numbers. When the last second remained, I shouted out the words I hadn’t wanted to say with my own mouth.
“Please gently f*ck your c*ck… into my p*ssy…!”
If shame had a color, it would be red. Because of what I had just said, I felt like I had turned red from the top of my head to my toes. Imagining that someone in the corridor might have heard what I said was truly horrifying. Ralph smiled with satisfaction at my unbearably shameful appearance.
“You were pretending otherwise, but seeing my c*ck got your body heated up too, didn’t it?”
“……”
“Not answering?”
“…Yes, that’s right.”
“How cute. If you’re planning to try any other nonsense, no matter how much you cry and beg to be saved, I won’t stop. Got it?”
I nodded at his words. His eyes held faint suspicion as he looked at me. And at the same time, arrogance seeped through, like what could someone like me possibly do. When Ralph’s heavy body that had been pinning me down moved back, breathing became easier than before.
“If you just listen obediently like now, everything will be fine. Now get down on all fours like a dog with your *ss raised high to the sky. Then I’ll treat this back hole very nicely.”
I slowly got up, pretending to follow his words. Ralph glanced at me and fumbled to untie the strings at the front of his pants.
His pants fell to the floor and his glistening member nodded its head grotesquely. His disgusting, dark-colored organ had thick veins standing out all over it, and an opaque droplet had formed at its tip.
At my shocked expression, sky-high confidence spread across Ralph’s face. When he lifted his legs one by one to completely remove his pants, I had an intuition.
This was the only moment Ralph was defenseless.
Remembering the man’s only weakness that my brother had taught me when I was young, I grabbed the two sacs hanging below with both hands and twisted them with all my strength. Ralph’s face was painted with despair, and soon after, a scream like a pig being slaughtered followed.
“Aaaahhh! You crazy b*tch!!”
Ralph belatedly covered his precious sacs with his hands, but the pain that had started showed no signs of stopping. He turned red and blue like red paint had been dropped on his face, then rolled around on the floor making groaning sounds.
“Oh no, I’m dying. I’m dying…! Oh no…!”
“…If you do this kind of filthy thing even one more time, I really won’t hold back then.”
I gritted my teeth and warned Ralph. I wondered if he, who was now on the verge of tears, had understood what I meant, but I left the room without looking at him anymore.
Unlike just before when I had pretended to be fine, my heart pounded like it would burst the moment I left the room. My clenched fists trembled, and my legs wobbled as they touched the floor. When Ralph’s groaning sounds from far away could no longer be heard, I finally caught my breath.
“Hah. Ha…”
I can’t describe how shocked I was when I first opened my eyes. If Ralph hadn’t let his guard down in the middle, I would still be caught by him. When I imagined the worst-case scenario, goosebumps rose all over my body and my mouth went dry.
‘What should I do now? I still can’t leave this estate. But even if I tell the butler… would he try to fire Ralph, who has worked at the estate longer than me?’
I had somewhere to go but couldn’t make a decision. My footsteps wandering aimlessly through the corridor felt heavy. I had already taken an unauthorized day off yesterday without saying anything, and if I repeated the same behavior today, I might really fall out of the butler’s favor. Wasn’t one mistake already enough?
“But I can’t not go to work…”
If I headed to the kitchen, Ralph would come there before long too. I couldn’t predict how he would react when he discovered me in the kitchen. Would he openly get angry and try to *ssault me in front of people, or would he pretend not to know while grinding his teeth?
From what I had seen of Ralph so far, rather than openly showing his feelings, he preferred to act lewdly in secret behind others’ backs. In that case, it might not be bad to gamble on the latter possibility.
‘Right, let me go to the kitchen first. Still, with people around, he can’t act like he did before.’
When I headed toward the center of the estate, people who were working looked at me with strange smiles. Then they whispered among themselves. They didn’t openly show it in front of me, but I felt like I could hear their inner thoughts from the way they looked at me.
– Is that her? The girl who vulgarly masturbated alone in a room full of people.
I couldn’t bring myself to lift my face. So I walked quickly like I was fleeing, with my head bowed like a criminal.
The kitchen I was visiting after two days was no different from usual. Some people were trimming vegetables, others were making broth for cooking, and still others were sharpening the exclusive knives that head chef Ralph used.
Most glanced at me and then focused back on their work. Emily, who made eye contact with me, openly frowned and then turned her body completely away.
I worried about what to do seeing her clearly angry appearance. If I apologized now and ended up provoking her anger instead, that would be a disaster in its own way. But if I missed this chance to apologize, I didn’t know when the next opportunity would come.
The reality was that if the Herlin family specter changed his mind, tomorrow could be the last day of my life.
“Emily, talk to me for a bit.”
I walked over to where Emily was and spoke to her. But she remained silent. Without looking at me, she turned her back and focused on chopping vegetables with crisp sounds. Then after a while, a blunt voice was heard quietly.
“I have nothing to say, so just do your own work.”
“I won’t bother you. Just for a moment.”
“Interesting. You’ve been dragging this out until now when it could have been settled with just a few words.”
Her reproachful words flew at me quite sharply. The sound of chopping vegetables felt eerily threatening. Emily let out a deep sigh and irritably threw the vegetables she had been preparing into a basket. Then she put both arms on her hips and looked back at me with a face full of annoyance.
“I shouldn’t have said that yesterday… I’m really sorry. That… toy was something you specially got for me thinking of me.”
“And?”
“I’m sorry I could have apologized earlier but didn’t do it sooner.”
“More.”
“Um… even though we fought, thank you for taking my side. I wanted to thank you then too, but I just… didn’t have the courage…”